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Ten Things of Thankful

  
I’m back for another week of thankfuls after missing my chance to post by falling asleep before the linkup expired! You know you’re sleepy when you fall asleep writing. Usually it’s the opposite the words pouring out of my brain to my digital paper keep me awake. Tonight won’t be any different as I replay my week and share my thankful moments positive or negative. Thank you to the TTOT gang to have a place to ruminate, reflect and replay my bucket full of thankfuls. 
This has been a rough week I’ve had a death in my family, four theatre performances, and a lot of appointments. I’ve been emotionally and physically exhausted and fell off my workout scheduled. All I’ve been able to do is exchange it for yoga and meditation. This is the second death to hurt my heart in six months and I feel the need to hide away for awhile and heal my wounds. But alas my life’s not designed in the way so I just take a break from things that I don’t have the energy for. I’m thankful that I’ve realized I can do that without any guilt to weigh me down. 

My son had a polysonogram sleep study last month and I’ve recently got the results that he has severe Obstructive Sleep Apnea. I knew this before the test was done as I’ve been walking this path with him for nearly two years! I’m so thankful that I found someone to help him finally! He was seen by the first ENT who said his tonsils were fine and he just had a long tongue and there wasn’t anything he could do for my son surgically. 

  Fast forward to 7 months later and I know his medication regimen has shrunk his swollen tonsils but he will require surgery. I’m so thankful for the new ENT that will be performing the surgery. His office administrator was amazing to me as she explained the procedures and what to expect before and after surgery. My son will also require further testing of an EKG to rule out seizures, and an MRI to measure his brain size for his developmental challenges. I’ve called these his invisible forces you can’t see them until they come out in his behaviour. Even though my sweet boy has a lot to endure for his tender age of four he still smiles, lives life with a gusto, and loves with all his being! I’m so thankful for his tenacity and inner strength that inspire me daily to be better and advocate more for him and his brother. Life throws me curve balls and I’m thankful that I’ve been able to knock them out of the park. I’m only one Mom with an amazing support team and for that my gratitude is endless. 

I have another passion in life besides reading, writing, and fitness  and that is theatre. I’ve been so blessed to become part of an amazing cast in the  pantomime Beauty and the Beast. We’ve had four performances this week with a sold out show today! I love being part of this very talented cast of all ages with the camaraderie we share on stage and backstage. This is my theatre family who make me laugh, cry, and feel grateful to have this connection. I’m so thankful to be able sing, dance, and entertain and put some happiness in some sad hearts- including my own. 

I’ve been keeping up with my book writing and I joined up for Nanowrimo (National November Writing Month) I’ve enjoyed finding writing buddies to encourage me and my own local region that keep me inspired with my daily word count. I’m thankful that I’ve been able to write out the pain that engulfs me and to let it go in print. Being busy has got me further behind with my word count but I’m thankful that I still have some time to catch up. 

Through all of this worry, stress, and grief I have my family holding me up when I feel I will fall. I stumble from time to time and they’re always there to lift up my heart again. Death is difficult, I don’t see the final goodbye to life as a beginning at first. I need time to process it as I think about all that I’ve lost in the last ten years and I’m overcome with emotion. I’m thankful for these dark nights of my soul as they help me appreciate the sunshine in my life. I would be lost without my loves who are my greatest support and the best cheerleaders to be blessed with. 

I’m thankful for a place to share and I thank you for letting me pour it all out here. I write to make sense of things in my life, and to feel less scared. I truly believe that each story I give birth to helps me to heal one fragment of my heart at a time. For that I’m thankful and feel so blessed. 

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Ten things of Thankful

I was so excited to see that I didn’t miss the link up for Lizzi and the gangs TTOT! I started to write mine last night and got one sentence in and fell asleep. I honestly could fall asleep sitting up lately and I did that a few times this weekend. So without further ado a very quick recap of my thankfuls. 

I’m thankful for the start of school for my oldest and preschool for my youngest. I’m excited to see that they’re missing each other and have lots to share about their day. 

I’m thankful for the look on my youngest son’s face when I go to pick him up at preschool. He’s so excited and comes running out the door with his craft in hand. 

I’m thankful for great friends who help you up when you’re faltering. And all they expect is a thank you and your happiness in return. 

I’m thankful that my son had a great follow up with his sleep specialist. The medication he’s been on has shrunken his tonsils, and we’re one step closer to finding the cause of his sleep apnea. 

I’m thankful for the ability to read, research, and absorb medical information. More times than I can count I’ve been told by these professionals in my son’s care that I’m a wonderful advocate for him. That love of reading and retaining information was ingrained in me by my Mom. 

I’m so thankful for my Mom’s love and guidance and even though she flies with the angels her influence touches my life daily. I recognized her birthday on the weekend and how my deep love for her always shines through. 

I’m thankful for the beautiful sunny weather we had on the weekend. It was wonderful to have that one last taste of summer before the fall chill returns to the air. 

I’m thankful for the beauty of the fall colours I’m excited to take my favourite hike by the river this week and share my pictures with you in my next post. 

I’m thankful for the love of my family and friends keeping me renewed in my faith, and trusting in God for things in my life I can’t control. 

I’m thankful for friends that have become family. How our thoughts mesh together in a beautiful cohesion of thoughts, ideas, inspiration, and laughter. And to see our children connecting is a wonderful moment as well. 

  

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