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Monday Musings

I sit here lost in my thoughts and I wonder to myself what shall I muse about today on this Monday? I have woke up feeling exhausted from all that magical lunar energy that was shared across the globe last night. The truth is I spend a lot of late nights with the moon as my company. Last night wasn’t any different except of the status of the moon in all it’s super blood moon glory! 

 

My view from the live feed from Clay Center Observatory

 
Unfortunately cloud cover impeded my viewing experience yet I knew there was magic happening up there. That helped me to feel connected with the rest of the world and their revelations as we were all gazing upon the same splendour. The lunar vibration in the air was electric and I felt old ideas, thoughts, and patterns start to fall away. Only to have new ideas, creative thoughts, and a sense of renewal take it’s place. A time of rebirth and renewal will begin to take shape in my life and things will start to make sense again. Where I will be blossoming and beginning to thrive instead of just survive! 

   
I like to think of the moon as my late night companion. He comforts me when I can’t sleep due to worry, anxiety, wrapped up in an insomnia based package. When I’m awake listening to the sounds of snoring drifting from each of the bedrooms in my household. As I make my rounds checking on my children tucking them in, tidying up their rooms, making sure they’re organized for school. I then go back and check and re-check my youngest as he suffers with sleep disordered breathing. After two years, countless hours, days, weeks, and months of sleep deprivation he will have a poly sonogram to investigate what the problem is. 

I’ve been through a lot to get him help and haven’t given up when told he had a long tongue that was falling back in his throat and obstructing his airway. I have held him in my arms as his body relaxed and his head tilted back and he stopped breathing. I have shook him awake and cried countless years of tears waiting for his breathing pattern to continue slow and steady. 

During these times the moon has been my best friend comforting me when no one else could. Seeing my tears and without judgement I continued to let them fall until I was emotionally spent. My exhaustion knows no end so I do my best to keep healthy with exercise and proper nutrition. I have ran in empty for far too long so self care has become my saving grace. 

Tonight won’t be any different from any other night. I’ll make the school lunches, bath, book, bed routine will commence with my children. They will read to, loved, cuddled, and prayed for. And the moon will be there for me as I read, write, think, and pray to get through another day watching over me like an old friend. Departing wisdom and magic upon me right when I need it the most. 

This has been my privilege to linkup with Monday Musings hosted by the lovely Crazy Little Family Adventure. If you’re interested in joining up click on the info above. 

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Ten Things of Thankful 

  
Here it is my time of the week to express my thankfulness. I think we should be thankful every time we wake up breathing. Today I celebrate with Lizzi and her kindness family for TTOT reaching its two year anniversary! Kindness and thankfulness should be spread everywhere and I’ll jump on that VW bus and start promoting that daily! I’ve been participating for three weeks now in this very special linkup and it’s my happy place to be in the blogosphere. So without further ado onto the link up. 😃
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1. I’m thankful for my gorgeous, goofy boys who make me laugh out loud with their ridiculous antics. If I’m having a day filled with sadness they lift me up with laughter. 

2. I’m thankful that I had a wonderful time on my son’s field trip to the zoo. I got to be a parent volunteer in his group and get to know some of his classmates that I don’t talk to regularly. I also got to see how well liked my son is. Being the new kid on the block a year ago was a difficult struggle for him and us. So seeing him thriving in his classroom environment made me so proud. ❤️

3. I’m thankful that my week without having a functioning fridge is over. I made do with a little bar fridge until our new one was delivered yesterday. You don’t realize how important those amenities are until you lose the use of a much needed appliance. Here’s to solid ice cream and ice cubes again. 😉

4. I’m thankful for reaching out to a friend when I was struggling to find my smile. Sometimes it’s within those vulnerable moments we find our greatest strengths. 

5. I’m thankful for another successful Bloggy Throwback on the Original Bunker Punks website. Each week I see more bloggers linking up reading and sharing some wonderful talent. This amazing site is finally getting it’s name out there. I’m so proud to be a part of something so fresh, fun, and fabulous. This was the first site I was ever published on and now I’m helping to make it a big success. 😃

5. I’m thankful for working hard on my self care by getting my daily workout in. All the support I’ve received on my fitness journey makes me feel so grateful. 

6. I’m thankful no matter how far I move away from my Mommy group we’re still a special part of each other lives. Only a phone call, text, FaceTime, and message away from each other. 💝

7. I’m so grateful to my awesome friend Punk Rock Papa for letting me be part of the OBP. I started running Bloggy Throwback a month ago and watching it grow has been a great source of pride. This special friend and I connected through our words, our hearts, and our families.  He’s like my brother from another Mother. I love him and his wonderful family so much. ❤️

8. I’m thankful for the sunshine and spending time with my family. It really is the elixir in my life, besides wine. 😉

9. I’m thankful for my ability to tell a story. I have always believed we all have one to share. And when I close my eyes at night all the blog ideas, characters dialogue, and sentence structure come dancing through my head. I love being creative and jotting those gems down before they disappear with the moon beams. 

10. I’m thankful for being safe, warm, fed, and loved. Without these basic needs I would be struggling like many are in the world. I’m grateful I can help the ones I can, and that God has blessed me abundantly with my family to love. 

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