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Monday Musings

I sit here lost in my thoughts and I wonder to myself what shall I muse about today on this Monday? I have woke up feeling exhausted from all that magical lunar energy that was shared across the globe last night. The truth is I spend a lot of late nights with the moon as my company. Last night wasn’t any different except of the status of the moon in all it’s super blood moon glory! 

 

My view from the live feed from Clay Center Observatory

 
Unfortunately cloud cover impeded my viewing experience yet I knew there was magic happening up there. That helped me to feel connected with the rest of the world and their revelations as we were all gazing upon the same splendour. The lunar vibration in the air was electric and I felt old ideas, thoughts, and patterns start to fall away. Only to have new ideas, creative thoughts, and a sense of renewal take it’s place. A time of rebirth and renewal will begin to take shape in my life and things will start to make sense again. Where I will be blossoming and beginning to thrive instead of just survive! 

   
I like to think of the moon as my late night companion. He comforts me when I can’t sleep due to worry, anxiety, wrapped up in an insomnia based package. When I’m awake listening to the sounds of snoring drifting from each of the bedrooms in my household. As I make my rounds checking on my children tucking them in, tidying up their rooms, making sure they’re organized for school. I then go back and check and re-check my youngest as he suffers with sleep disordered breathing. After two years, countless hours, days, weeks, and months of sleep deprivation he will have a poly sonogram to investigate what the problem is. 

I’ve been through a lot to get him help and haven’t given up when told he had a long tongue that was falling back in his throat and obstructing his airway. I have held him in my arms as his body relaxed and his head tilted back and he stopped breathing. I have shook him awake and cried countless years of tears waiting for his breathing pattern to continue slow and steady. 

During these times the moon has been my best friend comforting me when no one else could. Seeing my tears and without judgement I continued to let them fall until I was emotionally spent. My exhaustion knows no end so I do my best to keep healthy with exercise and proper nutrition. I have ran in empty for far too long so self care has become my saving grace. 

Tonight won’t be any different from any other night. I’ll make the school lunches, bath, book, bed routine will commence with my children. They will read to, loved, cuddled, and prayed for. And the moon will be there for me as I read, write, think, and pray to get through another day watching over me like an old friend. Departing wisdom and magic upon me right when I need it the most. 

This has been my privilege to linkup with Monday Musings hosted by the lovely Crazy Little Family Adventure. If you’re interested in joining up click on the info above. 

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesday

I was sitting here thinking of things from my past and about an old friend I lost much too soon. As my memories came flooding back so did my tears and then this quote came to be. Hold your loved ones close as we never how long God will lend them to us. 

  
This has been my contribution to  Silver Threading Writer’s Quotes Wednesday. Please check out her inspirational and very talented group. Thank you. ❤️

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesday

Today I’m sharing the inspiration and adoration that my son inspired on a rainy day. I usually feel quite sad when it rains. A light sprinkle I’m fine with, but if it rains for days I can fall into a slump. I lived in a costal area where it rained a lot so I always have this reaction. When seeing the joy on my son’s face and how he brought smiles out from all around was a beautiful thing to behold. Cheers to rainy days and rainbows as part of my Writer’s Quotes Wednesdays with the lovely Silver Threading. 🌈

  

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesday (late editon) 

It’s my favourite time of the week to link up with a great group over at  Silver Threading‘s house. I apologize for my late edition I got a little sidetracked with the long weekend. Please check all the amazing inspiration and talent there. Happy labour day to you. 😃

   

  

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Unexpected Gifts Blog Tour

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesdays

Here is my late edition to Silver Threading Writer’s Quotes Wednesday. I couldn’t think up anything last week so I went browsing through my pictures and the words just suddenly came to me. Enjoy and please click on and check out all the talent who link up. Thank you. ❤️

  

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Ten Things of Thankful

  
Another week has passed to recollect thankful days and grateful nights. I have to admit I’m struggling this week with years of tears that want to pour forth. I will do my best to articulate them here, or you may just see me bleed upon the page. Here’s to Lizzi and the TTOT Linkup my favourite spot to visit on the weekends. 😃

I’m thankful for my family. My sister took my oldest son for a holiday and it was good for all of us to miss and have some quality time with each other. 

I’m thankful for hiking and the beautiful scenery and moments of clarity I experience. Sharing that with my husband and youngest son is so special. We even made a friend along the way. 

  
  
I’m thankful for walks in the woods and nature and all it’s beauty. I always feel such a spiritual connection with God’s glorious creations. We’re all one, feeling the heartbeat of all life and love. 

I’m thankful for trips to the zoo with my zany family, and our two little monkeys that are so excited to climb, laugh, and explore. Our favourites are the Penguins and seeing their family’s having fun showing off for all their fans. 

   

 
I’m thankful for my memories and friendships. I’ve been struggling this week with the passing of my sweet friend 3 months ago. Everywhere I looked and every song I heard made me feel that ache of missing her. But I reached out to a mutual friend and she was able to help me with my grief. 

I’m thankful for the truth, even if it hurts. I am a seeker of knowledge and I dig until I find what I’m looking for. Sometimes it’s hard to face the truth of a matter, but I’d rather face that and it’s discomfort than live in a web of lies. It’s the unspoken truth of humanity that always keeps me guessing and searching. 

I’m thankful for overcoming obstacles and rising to the challenge. I completed my latest fitness challenge and I’m learning so much building my Beach Body coaching business. I’m lighter, leaner, and stronger, and I finally feel hopeful instead of harbouring pain in my mind, body, and spirit. 

I’m thankful for this beautiful spot I found on my favourite hike. I sat here to muse about life, love, and thoughts that need to be written and shared. 

  
I’m thankful for this rock it’s on this rock that I found my strength and belief in myself. Where I decided to make my dreams come true of writing my book and how to fund it. My son and I scrambled up here and wanted to show off our muscles for Daddy. 

  
I’m thankful for the generousity of family and friends. My sisters who love me and are my greatest most fulfilling friendships. They give me the gift of time, the smiles on my children’s faces, laughter, and fresh produce from ones garden, and homemade hummus and chips from the other. My in-laws gifted me with a beautiful new set of dishes as we’ve been using the same ones since my bridal shower. And my sweet friend I, I’m grateful for the words of encouragement and compassion right when I needed them the most. ❤️

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesday 

This my favourite thing to do each week is linkup with Silver Threading Writer’s Quote Wednesday. I’m so in love with all the creativity, talent, and poetry that are born from this place. Here’s my edition to this wonderful gathering. Please check out all this amazing inspiration. Thank you. 😘

  

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Writer’s Quotes Wednesday 

Technology can be a blessing and a bane to my existence. Due to a faulty WordPress app and my phone badly in need of an update I wasn’t able participate in Silver threading Writer’s quotes Wednesday. I missed it and I’m so happy to be back where all the creativity reside. 

  
Please be sure to check out all the talent that link up. Thank you. 😘

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Writer’s Quote Wednesday

This picture captures the moment we took our youngest son golfing for the first time. I watched him here with his Dad and was overcome with so much emotion. With all the developmental challenges he’s had this achievement makes my heart sing with his greatness. ❤️

  
This has been my submission to Silver Threading for Writer’s Quotes Wednesday. There is so much kindness, inspiration and wisdom there please check it out. Thank you. ❤️

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